For whoever wants to save his life will lose it; but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it. Matthew 16:25 NASB
My legs felt heavy as I climbed onto the strider. Fifteen minutes into a long block of cardio, I knew this was going to be a trying workout. Coach Erin encouraged us by explaining how building endurance pays off. ‘I know, I know. I can’t do this. Help me, Jesus!’ I pushed on.
That morning before my exercise class I had asked the Lord for a blog topic. ‘What are you showing me today, Jesus, and how do you want me to present it?’
Jesus came through while I pushed myself harder on that cardio machine. Suddenly, the holy spirit reminded me of Jesus’ truth about giving up in order to receive.
The remaining minutes on the strider passed more quickly as I fleshed out the connection between the spiritual and the physical.
How ironic, that to GAIN energy, you have to SPEND energy. But it’s true. Who ever feels like working out? But we’re always glad when it’s over, right? I always tend to feel stronger and more resilient after a workout.
Maybe I can now look at Jesus’ teaching from this angle. If I want what Jesus offers, then I have to let go of what fills my hand.
Yesterday, something I read in John Eldredge’s new book, Resilient pulled me up short. From page 197, “If you want to become a wholehearted person, you must reach the point where happily, lovingly, you give absolutely everything over to God. You make Jesus your everything, your all-in-all. Not only is this the fulfillment of your heart’s created destiny, it is the source of all recovery and resilience. Nothing can be taken from you because you’ve already surrendered everything.”
That last sentence stopped me cold. I knew, right away, that I have yet to surrender everything. Like the biggies:
- My and Mike’s health
- The aging process
- Our entire family’s well-being
- Our money saved up for retirement (2 months away!)
This morning, I asked Jesus for help. I wrote in my journal: “I want to give you everything, Jesus, so I can be empty of me. I want what you offer to give me, to fill me. I know in my head that your gifts will satisfy me far more than what I believe I have to hold on to. I give you these gifts of:
- Writing
- Language learning
- Health
- Fitness
- A good marriage
- Our families
- Time and all our resources
As though to confirm this attitude, the Lord brought across my phone screen this George MacDonald quote:
“Man finds it hard to get what he wants, because he does not want the best. God finds it hard to give because he would give the best and man will not take it.
Father, help me, make me willing to empty my hands and receive your best. Over and over again. Amen!
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