Either/ or – what we feed on

August 23, 2010

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The Gospel of John: 53Jesus said to them, “I tell you the truth, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood; you have no life in you. 54Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life and I will raise him up at the last day. 55For my flesh is real food and my blood is real drink. 56Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood remains in me and I in him. 57Just as the living Father sent me and I live because of the Father, so the one who feeds on me will live because of me.

Are you walking dead?  You are, if you are feeding your mind with thoughts about your circumstances.  I’ve been thinking of the choice we have every moment about what to think about.  I realize that if I am dwelling on (i.e.  Worrying about, fretting over) anything, then I am not growing, but dying.  Life comes from feeding on, pondering about, marveling at the many FACTS of my life in Christ.  Here’s the catch.  It takes effort to remind myself of my riches.

What are all those spiritual blessings stored up for me in heaven?   Paul talks about them a lot. In Ephesians 1: 3 he assures us that we who are chosen by God before the foundation of the world have been blessed with EVERY spiritual blessing in Christ.   All that Christ our redeemer intended to accomplish awaits us.  That would include:

-my sins being removed and laid on Him

-perfect righteousness being credited to me because of what Jesus did

-everlasting life in a place that will be fascinating

-forever fellowship with those whom I love who are also believers

-living and working on a new earth where real peace reigns.

Why is it SO much easier to think about the stuff I have to do, or the difficult decisions that face me, or friends and family who are suffering?  Thoughts about those things come naturally.  And they drain away life.

Jesus says in John that we have life to the extent that we feed on him.  I take that to mean thinking thoughtfully and deeply and with appreciation and wonder about the facts of our faith.  Look above at verse 54 again.  The verbs are in the present tense.  As we feed, we have life.  So the life is not for later, but for right now.

Jesus gives us this very same advice in another format.  Remember what Matthew records in chapter 6, verses 31, 33?  My paraphrase is: Don’t worry/ dwell on/ fret about all the normal things of life, but SEEK first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and you’ll get the other necessities thrown in.  But look at the strength of the verb SEEK.  The Greek word is ZETEO (# 2212) and it means require, worship, will, go after, endeavor.  Those are very active words.  Compare them with how easy it is to fall into worry.  We don’t have to be taught or motivated to fret.  (Come on kids, let’s practice anxiety.  Susie – look at how much better your sister is than you.  Make an effort…)

Along with seeking God’s kingdom, we are to strive for His righteousness.  I take that to mean God’s way of living rightly.  And throughout the Bible, God calls us to believe and to rejoice.   Living God’s way, walking according to His Word has to do with right or correct thinking.  We’re talking about the arena of the mind.  We are far too casual with our thought life.  In fact, we feel entitled to think what we want.  “Who are you to tell me how and what to think?” Well, maybe I don’t have any authority of my own as a fellow human, but God does.  He is our creator.  And He commands us to rejoice.  But we cannot rejoice unless we have content.  This is why believing God and feeding on Jesus takes effort.

Don’t get me wrong, God doesn’t dismiss as unimportant our circumstances, our loved ones’ suffering.  In fact He commands us to pray about them and to cast our cares about everything on Him.  But nowhere does He call us to worry.   We are to BELIEVE, PRAY, TRUST, REJOICE, OFFER THANKS, REPENT, WAIT, REST, BE STILL.  Do you see anything at all akin to worry?

In closing, I commend a book to you by Francis Chan called Crazy Love.  What got me thinking about this was author’s realization on page 41: “When I am consumed by my problems – stressed out about my life, my family, and my job – I actually convey the belief that I think the circumstances are more important than God’s command to always rejoice.  In other words, that I have a ‘right’ to disobey God because of the magnitude of my responsibilities.”

Amen!

A new test from God

July 6, 2010

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Biblical Principle:

Prov 16: 9 – The mind of man plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.

What I say to God:

Psalm 31:3
Since you are my rock and my fortress, for the sake of your name lead and guide me.

What God says to me:

Exodus 4:12

Now then go, and I, even I, will be with your mouth, and teach you what to say!

**

I had been looking forward to Blaine Ray’s workshop next week.  He is the founder of the foreign language methodology I use (TPRS® – teaching proficiency through reading & storytelling).  When I had read in the literature that he was coming to Newport News, I had contacted him in the winter and asked him to dinner one of the nights.  I wanted my husband to meet him and for us to get to spend some time with this delightfully witty trainer of foreign language teachers.  So earlier this week I emailed Blaine to make sure the workshop was still a go for 9-10 July 2010.  He wrote back and said he had been experiencing some dizziness and hoped that it would clear up before his Virginia workshops.  I wrote that down as a prayer request.

So Friday, 2 July, I prayed for Blaine and told God that his health was not something I had control over and would He please bless Blaine so he could come to town for the workshop and our dinner.

I almost dropped the phone when later that morning he called me on my cell and told me that he would NOT be able to present at either the Washington, DC workshop (2 days) or the one here in Southeastern Virginia (2 days).  And would I present for him? Long story short – after an incredulous reaction – ME??????, I said I would pray about it and talk to my husband.  Mike was busy at first, but I was able to talk with Marilyn, my principle, through tears and tissues – (I don’t even feel I practice the techniques well!). With both her and my husband’s enthusiastic support, I actually began to feel excited about the possibility.  I called Blaine back and said I would be willing and with God’s help, would do my best, but asked, “Are you REALLY sure you want ME?” Turns out, no one else is available and the alternative would be to cancel the workshops.   So God is choosing to use a jar of clay in order to get the gloryJ

I knew right away that I would REALLY benefit from this challenge.  It had never even crossed my mind to be interested in being a trainer.  I’ve been practicing TPRS and going to conferences and workshops for 8 years, but feel far from competent. I have an occasional good day when it all comes together – student engagement and enthusiasm, an ability to be creative and think on my feet and the sense that the kids really acquired some language through a good story we developed together about something that interested them.  When they bounce out of my French class chatting about the story, I feel fantastic.  But not every day is a homerun.  Some days I fall flat on my face and there is no energy among the teens.

So, why am I telling you this?

Because I know this is a TEST from God.  Not one of those ‘gottcha – you weren’t prepared’ tests.  This testing is about whether I will CHOOSE to trust God for all the unknown details and not play the WHAT IF game, fretting and fearing.  To be honest – I’ve already spent 2 restless nights and had the beginnings of a migraine last night and I don’t even get migraines.  Here is what I have to keep handing back over to God:

  • Attendees’ reactions when it registers with them that Blaine is not presenting.
  • Will my computer, the sound system and the projector work?
  • Will I be able to fill and follow the schedule adequately from 8 to 2:30 on both days of each workshop?
  • Will catered lunch show up on time?
  • Will these language teachers be nice to me?
  • Will I be able to think on my feet and develop a story in French as we go and sustain it while demonstrating all the proper techniques?
  • When I do the workshop a 2nd time here in my hometown, what will the 2 teachers I know (one from my school) say when they see ME, their peer?
  • And what about anything else that I haven’t even thought about?
  • What has Blaine failed to tell me because he does these workshops in his sleep? (after all, he came up with this method)

Mike gently keeps pointing me back to God.  I appreciate that.  So, with God’s help, I will trust the good shepherd and not be afraid.   I will step into this new territory and buck up like Joshua when God told him basically – “Dude, haven’t I already told you to FEAR NOT!  I’m going with you; I’ll work out solutions for you as problems arise.  You are not alone.”

Pray for me – not that it goes well, though I hope it does.  But that I win the battle in the mind and keep casting these worry thoughts back on Him.  I’m looking forward to reporting back to you next week how God did more than I could ask or imagine.

Wedding Prayers Answered

June 29, 2010

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Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us…Eph 3:20

There He goes again – my Father in Heaven, doing abundantly more than I could have hoped for.  Lowering my sights,  I didn’t even ask or pray for certain things  to happen.

Just like the West Point graduation celebration in May, this wedding week was full of LOTS of situations over which I had no control….

**

  • My mother-in-law was hesitant about coming out from Seattle after I did a heavy gospel number on her in a 14-page letter.
  • If she DID come out, how would the wheel-chair service work for the 2 flights each way?
  • Beyond the normal summer traffic jams – extra congestion and highway delays were to be expected because of a sold-out annual Hampton Jazz Festival the same weekend.
  • How would Wes’ imported Bible-preaching pastor blend with the more formal AND female Episcopal associate priest who was co-officiating with him?
  • Tech challenges inherent in preparing and running a 10-minute rehearsal dinner video with photos and music faced us.
  • At the last moment I asked Mike, our older son Graham and Wes’ Uncle Steve to tell embarrassing and humorous anecdotes from Wes’ childhood as part of the program for the rehearsal dinner.
  • How would Chloe, our precious one-year old granddaughter, hold out during a long wedding evening?

**

How my heavenly Father provided…….

  • Mike’s mom DID fly out from Seattle and she and I got along well.  She even lightly teased me about word-usage in my ‘overly-salty’ attempt to explain that we are all wretches and need a savior.  Whew!  I NEVER even anticipated that we would even MENTION the letter.
  • Everyone arrived on time.
  • The airport wheelchair service for my mother-in-law was superb.  This was her first solo air journey as a widow!
  • Cousin Terry blessed me by doing ALL the admin work for the rehearsal dinner (typed place cards and sticky nametags).
  • A neighbor and a friend provided bedrooms for some of the groomsmen and their gals.
  • One of the groomsmen on the Friday, had to drive back UP to Washington DC to collect his girlfriend and then descend again to Newport News in time for the rehearsal at the church – he made it!
  • The 3 talks by Mike, Graham & Steve had me in stitches.  Graham really blessed me with anecdotes of the two of them as children.  I FELT like maybe I had actually been a good mom.  (I’ve been doubting THAT a lot as I see far more sanctified young moms raising their kids – like my daughter-in-law Shay).
  • The video and sound system worked perfectly.  The venue for the dinner was delightfully intimate.  The food and service were FAR better than I had imagined.
  • The sermon during the wedding was INCREDIBLY biblical and to the point, even explaining the godly concept of submission.  I was praying for soft hearts that would be open to the Gospel.  There were non-believers present and plenty of church-goers who don’t normally hear a true expounding of biblical principles.  Aaron Proffitt’s message was also personalized to Wes & Anne.
  • During the wedding, I thought Wes might faint. I could see him take deep breaths. He was nervous and probably had low blood sugar for lack of food.  With Anne on his left, I pictured God’s almighty and powerful hand undergirding Wes on his other side.  Aaron’s humorous comments were timely and got Wes to chuckle at just the right moments, also sustaining him.
  • The reception was incredibly fun – because Anne’s family and our family have various circles of friends in common, we caught up with lots of people we haven’t seen since our former days at both the church and my old school.
  • Chloe was a doll and did well.  Her other grandmother took her home toward the end of the evening so she could sleep.
  • I was able to talk with a cousin who is an Episcopal priest about the certainty and truth of scripture.  I now have a clearer picture of how to pray for her.
  • Cousin Terry who shared a hotel room with Mike’s mom was able to provide perspective for her aunt when she was being negative about the rehearsal dinner.
  • And miracle of miracles, my mother-in-law actually came to church with us on the Sunday, as did Mike’s brother.  I had not even planned on it, given the painful outcome of my blunt letter to her 3 weeks ago.  But God worked it out so that SHE brought it up.  The sermon was tailored to her and it was 40 minutes of solid biblical teaching and preaching on the sin of negativity.  She didn’t criticize a single aspect!
  • My husband and his brother seemed to get along better, too.  There has been a softening of my husband’s heart toward Steve and a move toward less argumentation between the two since their father died in early May.

This wedding experience has again reinforced the truth that we can count on God’s faithfulness and his word.  Paul reminds us in chapter 4 of his letter to the Philippian church,

The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

I kept trusting God for each event or situation as it happened and He consistently came through.  May I REMEMBER the next time I’m tempted to be anxious about a circumstance or relationship.

Sola Fide – how to be prepared to share

May 3, 2010

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I read something that Ken Boa wrote recently – it was a very succinct summary of the essence Gospel.  I realize that if I am to be obedient to the Great Commission to share the hope that I have, then I have to be ready and prepped with, at a minimum,  a 30-second blurb.  But I want this good news to roll off my tongue, in order to feel confident.  It’s stressful, if I am not prepped, when someone asks, “What does your license mean – ‘sola fid’?” I purposefully chose those 7 letters just SO someone would ask.

I have taken what Ken Boa says and massaged it a bit to strip it of ‘Christianese’, to make it more accessible to those with no knowledge of the Bible.

“Sola Fide” means – by faith alone. That refers to being right with God, having a right relation with him.  We are right with God only through God’s GIFT of this right standing with him, and that through faith.  Furthermore, this right relationship or ‘righteousness’ is found in the good news or gospel.  The Gospel teaches that Christ died for sin as a sacrifice.  We have to let go of our own efforts of justifying ourselves:  this giving up that is an action called repenting.  Only then, with empty hands and no agenda can we receive as a gift his sacrifice, thereby making us right with God.  Amazingly, this right standing with God brings a boat-load of benefits that defy imagination.

Our record, with the listing of all our innumerable misdeeds since we were infants, is taken away and Christ’s righteousness is credited to our account.  Together, these 2 actions guarantee our admittance into the presence of Holy God for eternity.  But that is not all!  We also get the assurance that we are LOVED, we get a PURPOSE for life that will satisfy us (to live for the praise of the glory of this grace) and we get a NEW FAMILY – we are brought into relationship with other believers both for our comfort and our growth. Last, but not least, we get POWER for daily living – the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.  He is a guarantee of our future place in Heaven, kind of like an engagement ring.   After all, the Church IS the bride of Christ. (arrabon meaning a deposit/security in biblical Greek and in modern Greek, it means engagement ring). The Holy Spirit is also the ultimate power source – Paul reminds us that the same power that raised Jesus from the dead is living in us.  So we don’t have to despair of being incapable of obeying God and relying on him.  The HS gives us the power. We just have to trust and step out to do what He calls & empowers us to do, no matter our fleshly feelings of weakness!

The good news of the Gospel is amazing – but I need to be amazed and astonished daily or I slip into fear, worry and complaining.  So prepping to share the kernel or essence of the Gospel actually helps me as I rehearse continuously.  It keeps my mind focusing on this good news and it prepares me to give a reason for the hope that I have.

The best is yet to be!

April 15, 2010

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Eph 2 :5-7 (God) made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved. And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, (vs 7) in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace, expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus.

Did you know that God has big plans for the universe AFTER this present age?  What exactly is this present age?  It’s the time between when Jesus was resurrected and when He comes back.  Upon His return to Earth, Jesus will inaugurate the period called the ‘coming ages’.  Looking at just verse 7 – the truths one can pull out of those words are astounding.  Here are some:

  • God loves to express/communicate/show off/display His grace to the universe
  • The best way He has conceived of to show this grace is to have His son, Jesus, die on the cross as a substitute for us – the Messiah undergoes the punishment we deserve and we receive His righteousness as a credit on our balance sheet
  • Someone/something in the future will be WOWed by this out-of-proportion displace of grace  (that pitiful creature was worth dying for?!!!)

Therefore, God has chosen certain totally undeserving humans to be the recipients of this grace.  I wonder how incomparable these riches are.  The implication is that we haven’t seen anything this kind of grace during our present age – (The old ‘you ain’t seen nothing yet!’)

Paul expresses the difference between our experiences now and in the future in his letter to the Romans when he writes in Chapter 8, “… but I consider our present suffering not worth comparing to the glory that is about to be revealed to us, in us and on us…”.  Even though he mentions the concept of glory, in my mind, glory and grace all blend together in something unimaginably wonderful.

The next time you are feeling the blahs of ordinary life, allow your thoughts to play and be encouraged by imagining your future.  In a paraphrase of Jonathan Edwards:  a) our suffering is being fashioned to benefit us    b) what is truly good in this life will remain   c) the best is yet to be.

Sola Fide – what exactly IS faith?

March 9, 2010

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For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—not by works, so that no one can boast. Ephesians 2:8-9

I’ve been listening to RC Sproul talk about what Sola Fide means.  I finally ‘got it’ – that FAITH is the instrument by which we are saved.  It’s this FAITH itself that is a gift of God.  I’m thinking that there must be two kinds of faith.  We all have natural faith that is borne out of experience.  I usually trust my car to start in the morning.  That sort of faith is an ‘expectation’ that is backed up by weeks of reliable service.  But faith to take God at His Word, trust that all our guilt has been shifted onto Christ, that His righteous deeds have been credited to our account, that kind of faith is nothing for which we have any experience.  So God GIVES that faith to us, by making us wake up to true reality (as He defines it).  We learn that the stakes are ENORMOUS and way beyond our ability to ‘decide for Christ’ or ‘live a life good enough to get into heaven’.

Without God opening our eyes, we will never understand or appreciate the gravity of the spiritual war roaring and swirling around us.  Yes, we can all see that He exists by looking at the world.  No one is off the hook for not knowing about God and His nature.  But more is at stake than just knowing that God is real.  The demons know that!  Our very eternal souls are at stake.  It’s Satan or God who is our Father and laying a claim to us.  Those whose names are written in God’s book before the universe was created receive this supernatural faith to believe.

This is actually very good news for those of us who might be inclined to fear that our faith is weak.  It might be weak, but Jesus assures us, that if it exists at all, it is sufficient.  Not the size or quantity of the faith, but the one who gives it and anchors it matters.  After all, a small bit of nuclear energy is sufficient to create a huge explosion.  Either we have received this supernatural faith or we haven’t.  What comforts me is that we don’t have to muster it ourselves.

Nonetheless, like raw talent or muscles one is born with, faith will grow stronger as it is used.  This is a life principle.  We feed our faith and gain ultimate true peace by growing in the knowledge of the Lord.  The more we know about God and his character, the more we trust what He says.

So go ahead and thank God for the gift of faith.  And exercise it!

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